Trust is something very difficult to do.  When we, as humans experience trauma, learn to disassociate from our bodies, believing that the world is not a safe place and that feeling hurts, we are conditioned not to trust.  We develop a false idea that we are in control of our lives and we use up lots of energy trying to control things that we will never have control of. 

I am shown everyday, as I witness God’s hand in every detail……He is in charge.  I have witnessed and recorded hundreds, if not thousands of examples of just how intricately He is involved in our lives.  Granted, it’s impossible to comprehend how that’s possible, because we, as humans, like to believe that only those things we can physically see are real, but I cannot and will not ever be able to deny the miracles, big and small, I have witnessed, which have lead me to know God lives. 

Sapere vedere is a phrase used by Da Vinci, it combines the Latin phrase “sapere”, which means “knowing how” and “vedere”, which means “to see”.

Sapere vedere is knowing how to see.  It changes the saying “seeing is believing” to “believing is seeing”.

There are three “spiritual sights”: hindsight, foresight, and insight.  People with sapere vedere look in-ward, they are capable of believing and seeing what others don’t.  Da Vinci understood that seeing requires far more than our eyes, it requires our heart and minds.

Coming up with a word of the year was a difficult task.  There are so many wonderful words to choose from.  Knowing the power that words contain, I took my time deciding which word I would give my power to this year.  I pondered on “integrity” and “surrender”, but as the events in my life and the lives of my family, continue to unfold in a very intense way, and as I realize just how little control I actually have, the more evident it became to me that TRUST is what I need this year…. And not just trust…. TRUST IN GOD.  Trust in those we love is wonderful, however, regardless of who we are, with our very best intentions in place, we are human and will fail at some point.  It is then that it becomes essential to have trust in something bigger than ourselves, a higher power….. for me, that is God, my Eternal Father in Heaven. 

Trust is basically faith, and faith is the ability to believe in things not seen by our physical eyes.  I used to hope God lived and was in charge of my life.  Because of all I’ve witnessed with my eyes and felt in my heart,  I have no choice but to trust that a loving Heavenly Father loves me, as well as each member of my family even more than I do and I know He has a plan for each of them.  He is so aware of each of their needs and I watch with awe and wonder every day as that love is shown in a way very specific to them, teaching them and blessing them in ways specific to their needs and my own.

Gods ways are definitely much more complex than mine and often very hard to understand.  I’ve grown to understand that Gods ways are perfect, and even though they push me to the very limits of my patience and my ability to face into the storm and choose to stay… I am learning to trust Him.

What is your word of the year? I would love to hear about it!